reminiscing

i took a crazy trip down memory lane last night. it was nice to look at old pictures and think about what happened then, but i don’t want to let myself get lost in nostalgia and romanticize those times too much. like i realized a while ago, i spent my freshman year being nostalgic about the previous years and the friends i’d left behind and then, the next year, i was nostalgic for freshman times! that’s how it goes. i just need to keep taking pictures and not let myself get lost in the past. and organize those pictures! and copy the rest of them to cd just in case. i thought this song was appropriate:

and the chair where i once sat, someone new is there
and he’ll stare at that wall.
and we’re all parts of an alphabet
spell new words in new spots we’re at

and the big blue boat drifts around in the dark
when you feel like a jerk does it make you confused?
like how could you become as awesome as you are and still feel like a loser?
when you feel ugly and petty,
all quirked and unsteady -
just try not to forget there’s so many people who’ve liked you.
i hope that the art school enjoys your big drawing of ruins
we’ve all got good things to do and it’s good when we do them

from Austin to Brooklyn
they’re all smart and good lookin’
we’re all parts of an alphabet
spell new words with new folks we met

and the big blue boat drifts around in the dark
and they say that we’ll drift for a while till we die and the sun it’s a spiral
it’s a combination lock
and i’m just hoping that i’ll get it all in
and that these joys and frustrations are just turns in the combination.

i love you, friends.

MBC!

i just found out that the friend i’m hugging in that picture, cavan, is in jail. life is crazy. i should write him a letter.